Ok, I am taking Marsha’s advice in her comment to my last post, Going Round in Circles. Just do it. Just start doing something. Quit worrying about the best way, the best resource, this that or the other. That is the doom of perfectionism. The ideal image of perfectionists is that they are busy and everything is always in order. NO! Perfectionists are paralyzed into inactivity because they are stressing over whether or not they have chosen the best, planned the best, etc. For years, I didn’t study my Bible because I couldn’t figure out what was the best way to study the Bible, which book to start with, reading plan? devotions? sysematic study? All of that kept me from relationship with my God. My idol became the perfect way to study the Bible … rather than just worshipping the author of it all.
So, today we started. It wasn’t a great start but a start, nonetheless. I had to leave the house early to take my husband to work and my son to the dentist. After the dentist trip, my son and I went and picked up some supplies for a unit that we are studying … Building Big. I have had the book by David MacCauley for quite a while and also ordered the educators guide. You can find the same educators guide at the website for free! The guide is designed to do independent from the videos however Netflix has them so we are watching them. I bet the library would probably have these as well. It is a unit on bridges, tunnels, skyscrapers, domes and more. We started today with learning and illustrating some of the vocabulary and then watched the first dvd, Bridges. I thought it was very interesting.
Of course, tonight, I was looking for affirmation from the children. Note to self: Don’t look for affirmation from your children … especially 14 year old daughters! Even if though she seemed to enjoy it and was engaged during the dvd as she talked to me about some of the things, she shrugged her shoulder and said, “I don’t know.” when I asked her if she enjoyed today. I am not going to make plans based on the ever changing emotions of my children. I am going to press through with what I believe my husband wants me to do and what God is leading me to do.
After the movie, I ended up in bed with a migraine … the entire afternoon. I am only just now shaking the pain and fatigue. Oh well. Tomorrow is another day. Logan is looking forward to buidling structures tomorrow with toothpicks, marshmallows and gumdrops. At least one person is excited!
Immersed in the Mystery,
