Sometimes I am hesitant to write about issues that grab my attention, capture my heart. I am not sure that I have the vocabulary to put into word the thoughts, feelings and beliefs in my life.
I wrote somewhere else that in many ways, I feel like an infant in the Lord. I love the wonder that has captivated me. I see the world through His eyes in such a new fresh way. I am grateful for this new perspective because life had become gray, dull, mundane.
The challenge of being new in the Lord though is that I am starting over. Redefining, restructuring, rebuilding. I barely understand the words that I have begun to use to describe my journey …
emergent … emerging … missional … post modern … praxis … complementarian … egalitarian … deconstruction … reconstruction … and more.
I have allowed my limited understanding to keep me from writing as honestly as I might. I am hesitant to “put it out there”, if I don’t really know what it all means. That’s not the desire of my heart though. I want to be transparent and real. If I don’t know, I want to say, here is where I am at and I don’t know what it all means. My pride has kept me silent because I want to sound like I know what I am talking about. Ugh. There it is again, rearing its ugly head … Pride. I don’t want to be motivated by fear and pride.
Look for new things on my blog …
- a list of companions on the journey, the blogs that I read
- Books and authors that are challenging me
- Music that inspires me
- Questions that motivate me
- Art that mystifies me and hopefully some that comes from me
- and more.
I want to set aside the fear and pride. Again, reminding myself that this blog isn’t about bringing glory to myself but to God alone.
Immersed in the Mystery,
Cynthia
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