Starting over … no, I am not starting over. That indicates that I am going to redo something I have done before. That is not my intention. A page has turned and we are on a new chapter now.
For the past two months, I have felt the restlessness to move on, to start something else, with maybe a different focus. It would have to be because my whole life seems to be different now. On my part, there was a good amount of resistance. I was comfortable with the analogy of life being a journey. There had been vast and almost constant movement in my life during the last eight years and it was exciting to be learning so much … tiring sometimes though and definitely challenging. After a season of transition full of trials, suffering and pain, I have emerged whole, stronger, and full of life. Now it feels like I have found a place to plant, to grow, to flourish.
My blogging journey at Graceful Journey began just over three years ago. So much of my journey has been chronicled there. It is difficult to leave it behind and set off in a new direction. But it is time. Though I have known that, I didn’t know exactly what the focus would be. I toyed with the idea of just starting a different blog to focus on one aspect of my life and maybe keeping Graceful Journey for another … but I have always said that I cannot compartmentalize; I can’t specialize. Life is holistic; I can’t file it into different slots.
So still my whole life will be represented here.
As I have been working on setting up this blog over the last few weeks, I was clueless as to a name, to anything that would represent this burning in my heart. Several ideas were tried out and I did finally settle on using my name for the url … it does represent me. But still, there was an elusive element … until last night.
It is funny how at the last moment before a deadline I had set for myself to have my new blog up and running, a song grabbed me by the throat and would not let go. I knew immediately that my blog would be A Life Profound. Check out my sidebar for the lyrics and to listen to the song. It was not just the lyrics that illustrated my heart but the definition of profound which indicates depth – intellectually and emotionally – humility, intensity, completeness. Yes. That is it. It is time for the roots to settle in, to burrow deep, to live in this new completeness.
So, I don’t step forth into a new journey but I settle in to enjoy the new place of life and growth.
Living deeply . . .
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Chris Clack said,
August 27, 2007 at 1:32 am
Hey Beautiful, I love your new blog site and can’t wait to read your expression of how the Lord is working in our lives. You are very gifted and I love to see your gifts expressed through your writing and art. I love you with all my heart. Chris
Erin said,
August 27, 2007 at 6:19 am
Hey, you didn’t tell me you were moving! I love love love it and I look forward to hearing what new things you have to say.
That is a positively beautiful song, and I see why it’s your theme. It made me cry; I tell you I’ve been crying a lot tonight. I feel I have turned some kind of a corner today and that song just cemented it. I’ll e-mail you about it, maybe tomorrow.
Cynthia said,
August 27, 2007 at 12:36 pm
Hey Erin …
Well, I didn’t tell anyone that I was moving … except Chris. He knew and has seen me through struggling with what I was doing. I guess I didn’t want to tell anyone because all the reasons seemed so esoteric … just too hard to explain. Blind faith was leading … I just knew it was time.
The song is incredible and I just laugh at how it all came together at the last minute. I decided the blog would be up in time for the syncro-blog and literally I didn’t have anything settled until Saturday night. But it’s perfect, isn’t it?
In fact, I keep finding more lines in the song that speak to where I am now. As I am typing this comment, the song is playing and I just caught the first line …
“There is a reason for believing in the seasons
To know that spring will always come around”
For a time, I thought the blog would be called “Winter is past” based on the passage in Song of Solomon 2
10 My lover spoke and said to me,
“Arise, my darling,
my beautiful one, and come with me.
11 See! The winter is past;
the rains are over and gone.
12 Flowers appear on the earth;
the season of singing has come,
the cooing of doves
is heard in our land.
I found that passage and realized that my winter was gone and it was time to bloom.
Can’t wait to hear your story as well.
The prayer post is on it’s way …
Erin said,
August 27, 2007 at 2:00 pm
It’s a little different than “Landslide” huh? I’m glad. I’m looking forward to your post, very much.
I thought about “compartmentalizing” my blogging once upon a time, too. But like you said, life is just too holistic.
Kent said,
August 27, 2007 at 4:59 pm
Cynthia I love your new place. I look forward to watching it all unfold in your life. It is a life profound.
StaCeY said,
September 3, 2007 at 9:25 am
Cynthia…
Just beautiful.
The site is profoundly beautiful…
The song is profoundly beautiful…
and you … are profoundly beautiful…
and full of life.
Most wonderful blessings as you root deep and grow ever longer branches.
With you in your new Vision,
Stacey.