Shadow comforts have become my way of life. There is so much good for me right now but it is not the best. In fact, it is actually keeping me from creating, from living, from experiencing.
I could make of list of new discoveries but today I am suspecting that adding more on top of an unprocessed pile is doing nothing more than making a tower too tall, too heavy for me to handle. Eventually it all comes crashing down and I spend energy stacking back up and still, adding more.
In some ways, this is the life of being a scanner. I am grateful for Barbara Sher giving me permission and validation to be who I am … someone who has a lot of interests, who learns a little and moves on. But, being the scanner that I am, I think I moved on from Barbara’s book, Refuse to Choose before I learned how to live my life productively.
Today is just another day of chaos, it seems. I don’t like it and I am ready to be out of it. I have been re-visiting that Philippians series from Mars Hill and Rob Bell made a statement that during creation God brought order to chaos. Is that creative power avaliable to me? I need order! Oh how I wish God were the magical wizard who would wave a wand and instantly the chaos would be gone, the order would fall into place. Somehow, I believe this is going to require something of me. Writing about it certainly is not going to be enough; just another of my shadow comforts sometimes.
Now the computer must be turned off, no more checking blogs, catching up on news or looking for artistic inspiration for today. I am off to make a to-do list.
Until tomorrow . . .
