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Today I am …

recovering from a dream that I had gotten head lice and had to cut my dreads off and shave my head.  Cautiously reflecting on the meaning of that dream. Considering that I am settling even deeper into my true self and I feel that my dreadlocks are not only symbolic of that but the essence of that, I am not surprised that fear manifested in my dreams in that way. Silencing the gremlin, slaying the dragon … it can be arduous but I won’t back down. I will stay firmly planted in my truth.

making the once and for all decision to begin a practice of meditation. It has been calling me, standing in the shadows, saying slow down, sit still, wait and listen.  There have been enough days of me pushing forward, head down, determined to get more down today than yesterday.  This life is not about accomplishing more,  more, more.  “What is life about”, you might ask. That is the question I need to sit with … or not. Maybe I need to bring nothing … no questions, no thoughts … so that I can leave with everything.

enjoying absolutely beautiful weather.  Seventy-two degrees on January 30th?  This is what it means to live in South Carolina!  To make it even better, the monthly Our World Drum festival was downtown today. I was there, the beats thumping in my heart, moving my pen across my page, my form of making the rhythm.

hoping that warmer days might increase my motivation to hoop again. there were hoopers at the drum circle. I miss it.  Nothing but excuses can be given, I need to make the choice to start again.

eating spaghetti.  Yum. That’s all I have to say about that.

waiting for my husband to get home.  I miss him.  It has been here and there and back and forth and we have barely seen each other for a few weeks.  In some ways, it is comforting that we are in this place of being together without needing a constant reminder of each other but at the same time, I miss time with him.

So, there you go. A peek into my mind, my day.  What about you?  What going on in your life right now?

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Today I am . . .

• learning to think differently. It is an ongoing process but my spiritual knowing is being challenged, is stretching. It is SO good.  But I find sometimes that I am sore, tender and weak from the exertion.  Part of the challenge is also learning to communicate differently about my faith, learning to trust this process. It is one that I thought was finished but this is part of the exchange … trading the once-in-a-lifetime salvation experience for an ongoing transformation.
  

• marveling at the variety of life while watching Nature, David Attenborough is hosting an episode about Birds of Paradise.  Simply Gorgeous and quite entertaining dancing, I must say.

• preparing for a busy week. I’ve pulled the calendar out and updated it, sat with the children and talked through the week, letting them know who has to be where and when.  I am feeling blessed that they are each cooperative and willing to help.

• Teaching my daughter to make lasagna.  She is a great student. I think it was the best lasagna I’ve ever had.

• Focusing on my course of study.  I am finding a rhythm and flow and creative routine.  Though there is a limited time that the classes are going presented, I am able to find a balance of working through it at my pace, not being rushed through. Especially with soul restoration … the work of the soul cannot be hurried.

• Allowing myself to feel overwhelmed, sitting with that feeling and talking reasonably to it, discarding the lies that I am not doing enough or that a I am doing too much and renewing my mind with my truth.  It feels good to not let the emotions be my guiding force instead looking to my heart, to my soul and finding truth.

• sharing snapshots of my studio work:

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I have some ideas about some regular features here that will keep the flow of my blog going even when I think I don’t have something to write about.  Sometimes I join with what others are writing which is how my I’m Lovin’ It posts for Mondays got started thanks to Tara. There’s another weekly meme that’s been in my queue to add to my blog.

Some time ago, I stumbled across The Simple Woman’s  Daybook. It is a weekly exercise in reflection and being mindful of the present.  Each week, participants finish prescribed sentences such as  …

Outside my window …

I am wearing …

I am going …

I am hearing …

Around the house …

I’ve been thinking about joining and writing this post each week. However, leave it to me to find issue.  First, I am not a simple woman. I am most definitely a complex woman.  At first, I thought I could write it as a complex woman who loves simple things … and I do, sort of. But I love complex things.  Second, I don’t want to be tied to finishing the same sentences each week. So, I send off blessings of grace and peace to those who are participating in that particular meme and I’ve decided to create my own.

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Today I am …

feeling less than best, much less than best. Hormone related migraines have sent me to my bed, pounding me with pain and sensitivity.

giving myself permission to rest, to be quiet, to be unplugged.

cooking Italian Chicken sandwiches … with some assistance, from the bedroom. Thank you crockpot!

watching documentaries on netflix.  I know, it sounds counterproductive to dealing with my migraines but somehow it soothes me.

missing my church family. Due to holidays and snow and terrible sickness … and now migraines … it has been weeks since I have seen them.

making plans for when I am up and about. Only a short while, I hope, and I can be up and read to my children and print out the materials for my class.

reading nothing.

hearing the children move around the house, bumping and clanging.  They are busy with their projects and are contributing by cleaning up the kitchen.

hoping for a good week, one filled with health for all of my family.

asking you to join me.  I’d love to hear what’s happening in your present moment.  Feel free to borrow the title and maybe one day, this will be a big old party each week.  We’ll refine it together and who knows, one day we might have our own badge to share and commemorate.

Grace and Peace …