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What do I say about the work I have been doing the last six weeks? True to my form, I am not sure but I will take this time, these next few moments to try to find a way to express where I was, the new paths formed and where I am heading.
The year began with me taking on far more than I could ever do. That is true to my form also. I always think I am able to do more than I am. Quickly I was able to prioritize, do what I could there and there but the bulk of my energy was really focused on BIG.
I didn’t know what to expect. All I knew was that I have loved Connie‘s spirit from the first time I read her blog and I just felt like any workshop that she was leading would be worth the time, the money and the energy. That proved to be true, a thousand times over.
The best snapshot I can give about my process through BIG is learning to hold on loosely. At the beginning, despite some fun, fluid exercises, I was gripping my brush with my entire body. Tight, scrunched, controlled. Through the weeks, I learned to let go, to listen, to trust myself.
Let me show you the progression through some of my paintings . . .(the blog is distorting the pictures a bit. To get a more accurate impression, click on the picture to see it in a separate window)
(Just to give you an idea of the size of the paintings.
The last two take up the entire front of my upright freezer, the biggest one you can buy.
Just a few inches shorter than the doors in the house)
I have learned to slow down, to listen to myself and trust the voice that I hear. BIG also helped me establish artistic practice. Each morning would find me up and painting or drawing in my journal. Though I have been saying I am an artist, I haven’t been applying my time to my work. It is work, worthy work. BIG helped me see that.
Up until this point, I have not created a body of work. Yes, there has been something here or there but I haven’t been pouring myself onto the canvas. That is changing. My voice needs to develop and the only way that will happen is if I sing, every day, sing.
The brushstrokes are my notes, the colors the melody and harmony.
I can do this. And it is going to be BIG and BEAUTIFUL!
Thanks Connie!
