Here we go again

Three o clock in the morning … I cannot sleep and this is the song echoing in my mind. I don’t know if it is Three steps forward, two steps back or back to square one or past the point of no return.

Landslide by Fleetwood Mac

I took my love and I took it down
I climbed a mountain and I turned around
And I saw my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well the landslide brought me down

Oh, mirror in the sky
What is love
Can the child within my heart rise above
Can I sail thru the changing ocean tides
Can I handle the seasons of my life

Well, I’ve been afraid of changing ’cause I built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older
I’m getting older too
Well…

Well, I’ve been afraid of changing ’cause I built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older
I’m getting older, too
Well I’m getting older too

So, take this love and take it down
Yeah and if you climb a mountain and ya turn around
And if you see my reflection in the snow-covered hills
Well the landslide brought me down
And if you see my reflection in the snow-covered hills
Well maybe
Well maybe
Well maybe the landslide will bring you down

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Immersed in the Mystery,

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Been home for awhile

where have I been?

here

feeling very discouraged tonight, exhausted and a bit lost.

There is so much more that I need to say but cannot tonight. I am just too tired. Please note, and I say this because I never, never want to cause discouragement to the people at my church, this is not about an individual person or the community as a group. To say more would just cause confusion right now. I need to sleep and gather my words.

Love to all.

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Immersed in the Mystery,
Cynthia

Morning Headaches

Throbbing, hot pain greeted me this morning instead of a relaxed body and a refreshed mind. Starting a day with a headache seems like thievery. I have been robbed of a new beginning. Yesterday still clings to me and clouds my vision. Or maybe my glasses just need cleaning. Regardless the light of day will soon creep into the darkness of night. No piercing through today as the clouds weigh heavy upon us. The sharp worm of pain that invades my thoughts must be ignored. Though tempted to lay and recover my rest, life demands and I must show up.

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Immersed in the Mystery,
Cynthia

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Coping with Stress

I feel about to burst
Burst open
And spew until I am purged
Purged empty
Anger, fear, despair overtake
Overtake myself
If tears would just start
Start flowing
Then I would be released
Released temporarily
But now I am pressed
Pressed inward
Breathing is labored
Labored gasps
No answers relieve
Relieve questions

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Immersed in the Mystery,
Cynthia